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So I guess I don't really care if someone reads this or not. I'm mainly on to vent my frustration. I've noticed over the past few months that my stepdad likes to stare at me when my Mom isn't home. By stare at me, I mean he intensely watches my every move or just in general won't stop looking at me in a creepy way. I really do feel like he's probably mentally undressing me and that's beyond freaking gross.  Earlier this week he made some comments that he would like me to grow my hair about another three inches longer because he thinks it looks good on me.  Just ew, again he was creepy about it and it sounded like something the way a boyfriend might ask or suggest. It was totally wrong.  I later told my aunt about it and she brushed it off as my step dad being him and calling him a boob.  The next day I told my adopted dad about it and he brushed it off as well.  I find this all extremely upsetting as I was creep-ed out enough the night he made the hair comment that I wanted to buzz my hair.  I didn't feel comfortable or safe being alone in the house with him. I can't even begin to explain how betrayed I feel by my aunt and my adopted dad.  My adopted dad is technically just a friend and he and his wife have sort of unofficially adopted me. In the past I have always known or thought I could count on them for anything when I really need it. Now, not so much. I told him but not her because I always feel more comfortable talking to him. However since he seemed to brush it off since my stepdad didn't actually do or try to do anything to me I didn't even bother trying to tell my adopted mom because I was afraid of the same response.  I guess I will try to tell my mom next and see if she believes me. Unfortunately he is smart enough to only do such things when she isn't home or we aren't around other people.  Which with the way all three of our work schedules are, means I don't see her as much as I am home with him.  In general I'd just love to pound the crap out of this guy....

I just want to say I hope everyone is having a good Christmas Eve and to wish Everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.  I hope everyone gets the chance to enjoy the time with family and friends.  Safe travels
peace out

First off I am still alive, just buried in snow.

On a serious note for those of you who are following crash and burn I am trying to get started on the next chapter.  I wrote some but I'm not liking the flow.  If you want, hope over to ffn and vote on my poll for proceeding.

As for everything else in life? I'm sick of snow.  I got stuck a couple times trying to move my car and get it out of its spot this morning.  Spring come back, sunshine I miss you.

I went on a date last friday but it was a no go.  Maybe I'm being picky I don't know.  He was a nice guy but there wasn't any attraction saying I really want to get to know him better or spend more time with him.  It's kind of weird after not dating for just shy of 2 years. ... I so need to work on my people skills and find a way to meet people who aren't on the other side of the country or world....

I'm thinking of buying a GPS.  I know, I have a smartphone but I'm the type of person that prefers a camera for pics if possible and I want my mp3 player and gps separate.  Anyone have one that works and they love?  I was looking at a Garmin but I want one that has the lane assist.  Anyone try that? Feedback would be appreciated.  I have looked at reviews but it's nice to actually talk to someone to hear their experience.

Well it's that time of year again. I just want to wish everyone a safe and Happy Holiday Season. Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it and Happy New Year to everyone.

[] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness...
[x] Acrophobia - Fear of heights...
[] Agliophobia - Fear of pain...
[] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds...
[] Agyrophobia - Fear of crossing the street...
[] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects...
[] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car...
[] Androphobia - Fear of men...
[x] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking...
[] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers...
[] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society...
[] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched...
[] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders...
[] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers...
[] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning...
[] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness...
[] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection...
[x] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure...
[] Aulophobia - Fear of flutes...
[] Autophobia - Fear of being alone...
TOTAL SO FAR: 3


B
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[] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria...
[] Barophobia - Fear of gravity...
[] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep...
[] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians...
[] Bibliophobia - Fear of books...
[] Bogyphobia - Fear of the bogeyman...
[] Botanophobia - Fear of plants...
TOTAL SO FAR: 3


C
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[] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness...
[] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors...
[] Chionophobia - Fear of snow...
[] Chromophobia - Fear of colors...
[] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks...
[x] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces...
[] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns...
[] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers...
[] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs...
TOTAL SO FAR: 4

D
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[] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees...
[] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists...
[] Domatophobia - Fear of houses...
[] Dtychiphobia - fear of accidents...
TOTAL SO FAR: 4


E
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[] Ecophobia - Fear of the home...
[] Eisoptrophobia - Fear of seeing oneself in a mirror...
[] Elurophobia - Fear of cats...
[] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers...
[] Equinophobia - Fear of horses...
TOTAL SO FAR: 4


G
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[] Gophobia - Fear of marriage...
[] Genuphobia - Fear of knees...
[] Globophobia - Fear of balloons...
[x] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public...
[] Gynophobia - Fear of women...
TOTAL SO FAR: 5


H
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[] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun...
[] Hemophobia - Fear of blood...
[] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles...
[] Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia - Fear of the number 666...
[] Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia - Fear of longs words...
[] Hydrophobia - Fear of water...
TOTAL SO FAR: 5


I
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[] Itrophobia - Fear of doctors...
[] Insectophobia - Fear of insects...
[] Ichithyophobia - Fear of fish...
TOTAL SO FAR: 5


J - K
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[] Japanophobia - Fear of Japanese...
[] Judeophobia - Fear of Jews...
[] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms...
TOTAL SO FAR: 4

L - M
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[] Lekophobia - Fear of the color white...
[] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes...
[] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth...
[] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking...
[] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black...
[] Microphobia - Fear of small things...
[] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs...
[] Myxophobia - Fear of slime
TOTAL SO FAR: 5


N
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[x] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things...
[] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night...
[x] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals...
TOTAL SO FAR: 7


O
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[x] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight...
[] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8...
[] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain...
[] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes...
[] Ophthalmophobia - Fear of being stared at...
[] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds...
TOTAL SO FAR: 8


P
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[] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper...
[] Paraskavedekatriaphobia - Fear of Friday the 13th...
[] Pathophobia - Fear of disease...
[] Pedophobia - Fear of children...
[] Philophobia - Fear of love...
[] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid...
[] Podophobia - Fear of feet...
[] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple...
[] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns...
[x] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying...
[] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire...
TOTAL SO FAR: 9


R - S
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[] Rhabdophobia - Fear of being severely punushed or beaten by a rod...
[] Scolionophobia - Fear of school...
[] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon...
[] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation...
[] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep...
TOTAL SO FAR: 9


T - U
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[] Tachophobia - Fear of speed...
[] Technophobia - Fear of technology...
[] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder...
[] Triskaidekaphobia - Fear of the number 13...
[x] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections...
[] Urophobia - Fear of urine...
TOTAL SO FAR: 10


V-Z
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[] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women...
[] Verminophobia - Fear of germs...
[] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft...
[] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers...
[] Zemmiphobia - Fear of the great mole rat...
[] Zoophobia - Fear of animals...
TOTAL SO FAR: 10


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More than 50, Why aren't you in a psyche-ward yet?
More than 30, I strongly recommend some counselling.
More then 20, you're paranoid.
10-20, you are normal.
10 or less, you're fearless.
0 - You're lying

hmm, needs fear of medicine